I guess all my life i hated when people said i was so “asian” since i wanted to be an individual… that i purposely tried to stray away from it, trying to brush off stereotypes, but at the same time brushing off the Asian traditions my parents hold, accidentally.

America is such a cute little country, and ppl say like… oh its no longer a melting pot, people are having pride in their former country.  But…. I’m pretty sure, my grand kids won’t know chinese, or special chinese holidays, or eat chinese food at home, cuz of my stupid-ass.  So it is a melting pot, except with continuous immigration.

does the average non-recent-first-generation-kid actually appreciate diversity.  and not in the way like yea… i have tons of Chinese friends, i love arabs, that kinda shit.  Would some ppl be as close to me if i wasn’t American-washed…. If so, why do so many of us get white-washed. black-washed. american-culture-washed. that we lose culture, why do we have the desire to conform, or rather deviate from what we know from our homes?

i didn’t call my parents to wish them happy chinese new year, idkk it just wasn’t… in my heart. haven’t called in days

is that fucked up?